On page 65 we see Alice having a certain distrust towards men. "We were praying for my soul. I stared at Father Breuniger's crotch. Though about what he was under all that black. He was a man. He had a dick like every man did. What right had he, I wondered, to pray for my soul?" She doesn't even think a Priest has the right to pray for her soul. She has been raped by a man who was stronger than her, he had more power; preist's have the power as well. Making that connection maybe she is scared; scared to trust anyone with any power over her at all. She see's right through people doing nice gestures for her as if it's going in one ear and out the other; she just ignores it and worries about men.